Sunday, April 29, 2007

posted by: Jasmine @ 11:18 PM

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yesterday which is 28 of april.
me & er sao went to lighthouse church to support my dad!
mom & dion was there too! dad went to baptise.
heee.
after that dad drove mum, ersao me & dion to amk hub!
we shop alot luh.
bought 4 tops & 2 bottoms!
weets. i love that top from littlematchgirl luh!
reached hm around 9..
meet up with hweewen for a chill lo.
she came up my house & we had durians! whoots.
that caused me having sorethroat now. =(
and went to find baby! he work til v tired neihx!

today is me & baby's 6 mth anniversary!
we ate pizza hut & took neos!
watched "200 pounds beauty" !
damn touching luh. cried again.
lol. damn funny also!
i want the songs from the show!
all the songs the kang hanna sang v nice!!!
i must find it! =)
i love you baby!

tmr school starts again. sianned.
meeting up with weiqi & joan outside wrs tmr..
together w eileen after sch go there.
cos meetin 'em around 5 pm to collec our o lvl cert!
hahah. can go find my form teacher! yay!
mus tk pic w them tmr. long time mit once niah.
love my besties.

i will upload some pictures in the next post!

posted by: Jasmine @ 11:06 PM

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Friday, April 27, 2007

today's topic was damn interesting!
quite easy actually.
just plainl bout comunications.
just that time is v tight.
little time to eat cos many tins to do.
i rush to finish everything by 2 smth.
whees.
everybody's team presented well said by faci.
happy man!
n its geraldine bday!
we sang for her & did a ppt for her..
heeee.
tired man.
lol. but i miss my baby so much!
once i finish doing my RJ i will go find him ler.
yay ness! (:

school's fun!

posted by: Jasmine @ 6:32 PM

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Thursday, April 26, 2007

today i din attend school.
lols, raining heavily luh.
eileen sorry! made u go sch alone! =(

posted by: Jasmine @ 11:56 PM

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school was fun today!
the faci damn lame and funi.
make the whole class laugh man!
9.30am break went opp to chill..
now den notice my sch gt sell my fav tako balls! hee.
i think i'll have waffles tmr. mms...
the problem we studied today is much easier than ytd.
presentation as gd. yay!
tmr wil be cognitive n problem solving.
heard frm eileen tt its kinda hard. sigh..

went to look for bf after school.
mahjonged w his siblings.
i dont think bf is spending more time w me. =(
baby, i really dont knw what to do.
i only want concern from u.
and understand my situation.
to be more understanding and caring to me.
i guess as a gf, its not much to ask for ?

posted by: Jasmine @ 12:36 AM

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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

feeling so shag today luh.
bth.
the problem we learnt today damn confusing.
although is interesting but v complicated.
im mixed up with those codings!
ugh.
i even felt like sleeping during presentation!
omg.
ate jap food for lunch at canteen.
so full cans? no appetite.
ate a little only. & bought bubbletea!
went to see performance of CCAs.
the hip hop danc really triggered my heart luh.
the R&B songs and the moves they make. so amusing!
still have no idea of what to join yet.
mmmm.
eileen joined makeup stuffs & retail i guess.
hope tmr's topic will be much more interesting.
i saw ppl performing singing with a guitarist. omg.
i get excited..
& sang together.. bcos they sang "shi ni jue ding wo de shang xin"!!


baby! its ours. the first song i've heard you sang! my babyloves!
looking forward to shopping w momma this weekend!

posted by: Jasmine @ 11:41 PM

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posted by: Jasmine @ 10:10 AM

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Monday, April 23, 2007

week starts tmr.
i will concentrate in my studies to kip myself busy.
sigh...
nth much to blog about.
bye.

posted by: Jasmine @ 12:31 AM

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Saturday, April 21, 2007

painful eyes.
breaking heart.
uncontrollable tears.
an what u hear is nothing.
because u don't see it.
you don't feel it.

do you really know why im doing this?
you think i enjoy it?
hurting you & punish myself?
think of everything we quarreled about before.
do you think it can be solved,
just because you said you'll changed or you'll not do it anymore?
am i so naive? i don't want us to suffer next time.
doesn't mean it doesn't hurt for me.
hw many 'last chance' you have?
how many times my heart would bleed for you.
='/

please do understand.
if it wasn't love, i wouldn't even care.
if it wasn't love, i wouldn't punish myself this way.
im sorry.

posted by: Jasmine @ 1:36 PM

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Friday, April 20, 2007

even if i'll miss you in the middle of the night,
even if i'll miss your sweet messages before sleep,
even if i'll miss your face, your voice,
even if i'll miss the warm hugs you've gave me,
even if i'll miss renting movies with you,
even if i'll miss everything i've done with you,
even if i'll cry hard in the early mornings,
even if i'll suffer from a big heartache,

i promise i wouldn't let you know.

we always break & patch.
even for this time, to you, its nothing,
because maybe you think we will get back again.
but you know, i want to be with you badly,
its not that the feelings aren't there anymore.
its just that there's no trust in this r/s.
accusing, misunderstandings, quarrels..
its impossible.
i left nth to you but bad image like you said.
im happy when im with you,
i just don't know what has made you changed to the one you are now.
that treats me that way whenever we quarrel?
don't you remember?
when we get together last year,
how sweet can we get?
we hardly have any quarrels.
i missed those days.
where have they gone?

i often wonder,
do you love me now?
i use the word now, bcos you're different from the past.
or its just that you get used to having me by your side.
every weekends shouldn't be lonely. ='/
what am i to you. what?

posted by: Jasmine @ 10:26 PM

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edited post!

posted by: Jasmine @ 7:28 PM

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Thursday, April 19, 2007

school's fun today.
the problem we studied today was easy.
the presentationn was good bcos my team gt subra!
subra is gd at computer and he cut several videos.
included it into our presentation.
faci is happy with our presentation.
feng yi too, she help me read out the information den i type.
she's quiet but i like her luh.
don't know why i think she v cute.
heheh!

last time hair was highlighted red strips at HairInn.
non obvious ley.
today jie's academy gt promotion.
went over to get my hair done once again.
my hair is red now. lol.
done by jie. i will cherish my hair even more!
my jie do de lei! lol.
thanks eileen cos she acc me all the way and she's tired.
so poor thing.
and sorry to my baby bcos today last day promotion den i din managed to acc him.
sorry baby! forgive me? love you!

posted by: Jasmine @ 11:11 PM

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today learnt interest and opportunities..
about enterprise one.
so hard can?
don't understand.
lols..
presentation was bad, i just merely read from the screen.
sigh. =/
tmr will be a better day!
went to chill in the disabled. lols.
eileen came up to my class during brktime.
we bought bubble tea! yippee..
had fun furing breaktime.
we on our songs in the class, since the faci is not there.
i did badly for the quiz today.
sigh, i really dont understand. bo bian.

get to see my bf today!
hell lots happiness.
watched vcds together.
love baby to bits!
he's mine and only mine. forever!
baby is fatty! =p i love my fatty baby! hehs.

posted by: Jasmine @ 12:19 AM

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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

posted by: Jasmine @ 11:09 PM

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Monday, April 16, 2007

first day of school was like, so shag luh.
i didn't sleep well yesterday night.
my back ache is getting worse each day.
aches till i cant get into bed.
i close and open my eyes for the whole night.
sigh. pathetic.
as usual meet eileen and walked to school.
today we learn basic science.
headache.. did our presentation on blood.
cant wait till lesson's over luh.
lunchtime so packed! omfg.
i miss my bf so much.
din manage to meet him today.
not enough sleep.. sigh.
went cwp w eileen after sch to collect her phone.
we had pastas for lunch and headed home luh.
i fell asleep on the bus! what the..
too sleepy and i nearly missed my stop!
took a 3 hours nap and im feeling better now.
just that the back aches is still there.
even simple walk hurts. sigh.
gotta see doc lers.
get to know new girlfriends too.
cant imagine i found girlfriends as 38 as me also.
lol.
stuffs v heavy lei. so sad!

boyfriend, i miss u !

posted by: Jasmine @ 10:01 PM

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Sunday, April 15, 2007

acompanied bf for past two days.
felt happy doing that. (:
we watched vcds & play chess again.
whahah, laugh till ~
today went cwp meet my joan, eileen, weiqi.
took neoprints & pictures!
how wonderful, so long since we get together.
don't know when will be our next gathering.
mms.
tmr school starts, starting off with science.
gosh, im weak in that! don't know hw.. =(
i miss my precious boyfriend!

posted by: Jasmine @ 11:11 PM

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Thursday, April 12, 2007

first day of orientation was quite boring.
so packed luh.
eileen & i went to interchange but the queue for 169 & 902 are both long!
cabbed there and met up with hanim & allynn.
hahah. so nervous, everyone dun dare go class cus strangers everywhr.
12pm break.. canteen no space!
queues so long!
we left school and skipped the 3rd meeting.
2nd & 3rd orientation not going either.
rp organising games and we will get wet.
not interested luh.

everyday raining.
get used to that kind of cold feeling.
we are drifting apart.
feeling stranger to me ?
i don't know if each of us had changed.
but i know that the feeling now is not as close as before.
even when you are beside me,
i don't feel you. i don't feel your love already.
what can i do?
i won't expct u to change back.
just let me get used to it.
sigh.
moodless to blog. bye.

posted by: Jasmine @ 11:50 PM

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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

posted by: Jasmine @ 10:36 PM

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posted by: Jasmine @ 3:28 AM

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Monday, April 09, 2007

ever since i didn't fal asleep around 3am.
i stayed awake till now.
im waiting for your msg bcos i cant find ways to contact you.
what if you didnt contact me?
what am i waiting for all along?
my eyes felt like its being poke by needles.
back felt like its breaking.
im stil waiting.
waiting for something i don't even have confidence in.
waiting for your call or message.
='/

posted by: Jasmine @ 6:03 AM

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3.10am.. i off the comp.
went to the room.
lie on the bed.. tried my best to fall asleep.
i look at my phone.. the pictures we took.
the messages from you.
i cried louder and louder.
i cried profusely.
i couldn't stand my heart aching.
i wake up. switch on the com again. just to blog.
i wanted you to know i need you so much.
i couldn't close my eyes bcos everything is you.
i get used waking up seeing u by my side.
i get used to receive sweet msg from you every night.
today felt so empty.
you dont feel it. you are sleeping and i wanted so much to hear your voice.
wanted so much to see you now.
letting you see me in this situation.
in the living room by myself crying and blogging.
miss you badly and im alone.
you dont even know it.
i didn't expect it to be so painful...
how can you make me suffer like this. ='/

posted by: Jasmine @ 3:43 AM

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my back is aching hard.
no more massages from you.
sigh.
its already 3am and i cant even get to sleep.
afraid that i might cry to sleep.
i didn't want to.
sigh.

posted by: Jasmine @ 3:10 AM

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i know you never like things that i copied from somewhere else.
but fact is im in no mood of thinking it myself.
these are quotes representing thought of mine. pain in my heart.
and everything hurts so much.
i tried to look on the bright side.
telling myself that you onced loved me alot, i should feel fortunate.
im happy that i once have you by my side, in my life.
thanks for everything.
no point showing you teary faces when we are messaging.
i don't want you to have sleepless nights becos i know it felt terrible.
i don't want you to go on worrying about me.
i tried my best to show you im strong enough to let go.
i can do it.
='/


How can I forget you when your always on my mind?
How can I not want you when your all I want inside?
How can I let you go when I can't see us apart?
How can I not love you when you control my heart?


Forget The Times You Walked By,
Forget The Times You've Made Me Cry,
Forget The Time You Held My Hand,
Forget The Sweet Things If I Can,
I Can No Longer Pretend,
I Have To Remember Now That You're Just A Friend


Only the one that hurts you, can make you feel better.
Only the one who inflicts the pain, can take it away.


You never see my tears, but that doesn't mean I don't cry.
You never feel my pain, but that doesn't mean I don't hurt.
You only see me smile, and that doesn't mean that I am happy.


Sometimes it hurts more to smile in front of everyone than to cry all alone.


Slowly, I broke down,
tears fell from my eyes,
my heart shattered into pieces,
all the sweet memories played inside my mind.
And like that I stayed while watching you walk out of my life.


Don't look at me and say goodbye.
Don't whisper words to make me cry.
Just walk away if you have to go.
You will break my heart but I promise I would never let you know. ='/

posted by: Jasmine @ 1:44 AM

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Sunday, April 08, 2007

has been a long time since i last blog eh?
many tings happen lah.
last few days spending my weekends with bf.
watching diff movies & play tv games.
learn how to play chinese chess. im so dumb luh! =.=
last few days wer happy lah.
i thought today will be happy also.
but it didn't.

was raining heavily & we went cwp.
quarreled again over smth i swear i didn't.
i have nth to say.
just don't like ppl acuse me over smth i didn't.
even if i've done wrong that u cant trust me,
also don't have to go overboard like.. in the public?
a sinner who makes a sin doesn't make him a sinner for the rest of his life.
when i feel that i have nth to say, i felt helpless.
i want to help myself i don't even know how.
i tried to explain things but to no avail.
it makes mefeel so suffocating so painful.
i know you pain also. but i wanted to help what can i do?
when are we going to stop all these.
i wanted to ask ourselves.
aren't we tired of this?
suspecting, guessing, accusing or misunderstanding?
we have any happy moments.
but the angry emotions are nearly covering every happy moments we had.
i have nth to say.. really. =(
everything is so gd about you that i love and tolerate.
but attitude.

after everything we quarrel about, i went to look for joan.
waited for her to end work.
was like so lonely luh.
i hate it.
you saw me alone in th mall and sent me back to metro.
and u just walk away.
whats the point of sending me back there?
looking at joan work and u left.
why cant i walk around?
i don't know how to handle our quarrels already.
ach time we quarrel i would just keep quiet.
becos thats the only way.
no one will listen when they are angry.
blog til here.. sigh.
im getting old. everyday frown.

posted by: Jasmine @ 10:20 PM

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Tuesday, April 03, 2007

if i could have a wish granted...
i would wish for 10 more wishes.

i wished you would cherish me earlier, that i can feel it.
i wished i have great tolerance to swalow al quarrels & pain.
i wished we didn't scold each other when we quarrel.
i wished i can change things that are happening.
i wished we could last forever & happily.

but its only i wished.
how i wished it can all come true.
i don't care if im greedy
but i need you, i will try my best, to get used to this.
this life without you. ='(

i wouldn't forget we celebrate our 5 mths together at sakae.
i wouldn't forget that you piggyback me at genting theme park.
i wouldn't forget we went overseas together.
i wouldn't forget we celebrate valentines at yuki yaki.
i wouldn't forget the ugly faces we made to each other.
i wouldn't forget how much you mean to me.
i wouldn't forget staying over at your house watching movies.
i wouldn't forget the quarrels we had over small things.
i wouldn't forget that we take neoprints together.
i wouldn't forget fetching you from school & go home together.
i wouldn't forget times i spent with you & your family.
i wouldn't forget we went chinatown like young married couples.
i wouldn't forget how much you cared for me like no one does.
i wouldn't forget everything i've done with you.
and i don't want to.

='/ moodless to blog. bye.

posted by: Jasmine @ 11:51 PM

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Monday, April 02, 2007

these few days spent times w bf.
bef school reopen i need more time w him..
we rent vcds and watched together..
mahjonged alot also w dearie and his sister..
fun luh.
today his parents come back from thailand..
lol. ate dinner together and cabbed home luh.

5th of april got to accompany eileen to school..
she needs to configure her labtop bef sch starts.
ah nic also wants to configure..
mm.. if ez link top up liao i must go dhoby ghaut fetch eileen.
she v clever hor. go there pei her tktrain come back. lols..

v long nv mit crystal.. dont knw hw is she.
hope she's fine..
jie also! her slippers at my hse going rot.
mis her lik siao. lol. mus call her alread..
cos going to sch reopen..
and hor.. weiqi & joan choc still w me.
but luckily 7th of april mitin dem ler..

i love my boyfriend!

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