relle so miss him.
is it true that i am happier w him.
if not i will miss him every second.
wad shall i do.
ya, its true that the ending is predictable.
cos i need him in my life.
i knw he'll promise me things like wil nv upset me agn.
even if i do not trust him, but i am still happy he tried.
bcos i need him, so whateve he says is so impt.
i really just want to be loved by him and no one else.
that is what i really wanted.
i finally know what i wanted.
thanks for everyone concerns for me.
i knw tt it is my decision to let things go the right way.
i just want to b happy.
i believe this last time.
that i will be happy.
really.
thanks to everyone tt cares bout me.
(: loves.
after many days without seeing him,
den i knw i really cannot forget him.
as for the hurt i suffered, he say wil trit me gd le.
hope he will.
i will forget the pain.
bcos it is him.
the pain is inflicted by him, thus he is the only one that can tk my pain away.
posted by: Jasmine @ 7:50 PM
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having a headache.
cant get to slp ytd luh.
den i go and take some fedac medicine.
st away slp until cant wk up.
and causes my giddyness earli in the morning.
sorry linlin, i promised u tt im coming. =(
i miss my classmates.
i dont knw if i am happier w/o him or rather b w him.
chat w my faci ytd n was advised to b clear of wad i want.
n faci even said tt actually the ending is quite predictable already.
bcos all knows tt i have used to life w him.
sigh.
i miss mummy too.
if she was here w me...
she's flying back tmr!
gonna go fetch her at the airport.
i love trips to airport man.
dunno why.
the feel is good although im not the one travelling.
i so wanna tk plane can?
since years i last fly on a plane to other countries. =(
posted by: Jasmine @ 3:50 PM
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he says he is outside my house now!!!
how!!!!
i cant b softhearted but i feel my heart melting!!!!
=(
why he want to make me like tt!!!!!
posted by: Jasmine @ 1:51 AM
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as usual. i still went dwn.
bcos i really v miss u.
v v v miss u.
we always mit everyday n suddenly bout 5 days we didnt.
i was hurt.
u left me alone n nv one single msg stating u miss me.
ur msgs went cold.
and even if i ask if ur feelings had fade.
ur ans was so vague.
the tears went dwn.
crying and screaming on the phone w u until i dun even knw what im saying.
but u didnt even say anything.
i cant fil even simple heartache from ur voice or msgs.
even miting u, st went hm n cry.
asked for my forgiveness.
my heart was melting but the pain is still there.
i knw i couldn't go back to u.
i knw things will be the same.
i dun wan..
how to mk my heart harder.
i hate myself.
didnt attend sch bcos of nt enuf slp.
cry even on bus.
every min thinking of u..
wad bout u..
i went dwn just to c u..
but wad did i get..
u said umpteen times of sorry to me.
but how can tt help.
it doesn't even help a bit to heal me.
the last few days u make me face everything myself...
u nv read my blog. nv try to understand my feelings.
before u apologised..
do u really knw wad i need.
yes i love u.
n wad i want in return is so simple to show me u care.
and i knw i will softhearted back n forgive u.
but i feel nth!
i dun see u heartache for me!
i cant feel tt u need me!
i felt so one sided.
crying alone in the room.
everyday alone at hm when sibling r out to work til night.
if frens wasn't there i would be so alone.
and agn think of u.
wad am i..
the one i used to be is gone.
i used to be so cheerful.
and even strong.
i don't used to cry in public..
what am i now?
what am i..
u r like a stranger to me..
='( y cant u just care for me like u used to when we just started..
does relationship that last longer really changes with time?
its been so long since i am single.
i am v afraid.
i rely too much on u.
without u i think bout u everywhr.
everytin reminds me of u.
without me how would u feel.
u will only speak and tel me.
but i see no actions tt can mk me really feel it.
who can give me the strength to not forgive u?
i really need.
i knw w/o u life would b empty.
bcos i am used to meeting u everyday.
after sch st go ur hse find u.
every fri stay u place.
even if we nv go out i oso wil stay at hm w u.
even if we have nth to do i wil b at ur side.
how am i to adapt it now.
w/o u i wil cry everyday.
but at least beter than going back to u n feel so unloved seeing u changing.
changing to a stranger.
tt i don't even recognise.. ='(
posted by: Jasmine @ 1:19 AM
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sigh.
didn't went sch today either.
woke up around 3.
and cried agn can when talking to gf.
met her up at cwp.
and she acc me till 8 plus.
i bought a piggy bank. realli is piggy de leh!
so cute nor.
but every1 say i wont save one. =p
thanks to her i am not alone at hm.
we went to look for longlong at cavana!
she so cute selling cheese balls. =)
after that went to meet yanling.
we walked together to wdgrove for dou hua.
and chat alot.
lucky gt her too. =)
went to her hse and chat w her family.
thks cutie! lol.
jie nv come find us.
bt mayb tmr she helpin me to dye my hair.
its supposed to be our 1 yr 1 mth anniversary and tins turn out lik dis.
sigh.
i hate.
he is at dwnstairs now.
i will nt go dwn.
he nv knw his mistake.
n wil mk use of my soft hearted.
i hate!
posted by: Jasmine @ 12:08 AM
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edited by me! nice? hees.
we are the short but sweet. LOL. =p
like this pic leh. duno why.
hahah.
ya, admit that i cried again minutes ago.
chatting on phone w gf.
i don't want to let crying be one of my daily needs.
sigh.
gf meeting me later.
i guess its always better than staying at hm alone.
he will never understand.and i don't need him to!
=/
posted by: Jasmine @ 2:41 PM
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taken @ partyworld.
outside jeanyip!
promoting darlie colgate?!
i taller then her hor!
whahahah! so cute!
take this post as wednesday post.
i went to sch and left w gf at 1st meeting.
went to civic mac for lunch and hm luh.slack at hm till 8 plus & went to mit jie.
saw yanling there & took many pics! HAHA.
i went to find jie cos no one pei me at hm.
really v lonely. hate this feeling.
gt bf like dun haf.
went to smk w them and chat alot.den end up we went singing!so fun uh.
long time nv sing
10plus pm to 1am!
cabbed home!
guess what?
yanling AT MY HOUSE NOW! (:hahah, but she leaving at 4am.
hahahah. poor thing!
lucky she off tmr.
and tmr most probably im not going sch!
i skip sch many times this wk.
moodless to go sch now.
sigh.
and in fact, i cried on bus this morning.
cried in the ktv.
what do u think.
have u ever cared? ..
posted by: Jasmine @ 2:02 AM
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you never bothered to read my blog!
to even try to understand how i feel!!!
even if i am not w u.
u nv tried to see what feeling are u giving me!
you know i hate to be lonely but u didn't care.
u can show me that u are so calm when im crying hell on the fone.
how can u make me so hate you?
how can you!
HOW DID YOU BECAME LIKE THAT
? ='( I HATE!!!!
DONT EVER STEP INTO MY LIFE AND MAKE ME SUFFER W YOU.
I HATE YOU! ='(
Insomnia
Is my lie
That I use daily
like makeup
to cover my sadness
posted by: Jasmine @ 5:26 PM
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lame me going sch!
oooo!
the mirror so dirty!
even show a cut thru my forehead!
hahah!
am in sch now.feel like leaving w gf.shall we?today met up w shar, chunju & diney darlings at interchange.
like so long nv saw diney darling.
miss her so much.
she just can give me the feeling that i want to share everything w her.
(:
was crying so much in the night ystd.
was having teary eyes on the bus this morning.
whats next?the most painful experience is that when you're crying and when your heart
is breaking...
& NO ONE HEARS IT BUT YOU...
posted by: Jasmine @ 10:06 AM
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don't say i didn't try to understand your situation.
u made me feel lonely.
left me alone.
i hate u!
posted by: Jasmine @ 1:04 AM
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posted by: Jasmine @ 12:05 AM
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am back home now.
v sleepy.
feeling v empty once i leave my friends.
because the one i really need is not here.
and i am not in his heart either.
the emptiness he is not able to feel it.
he left me here.
when he have his accompanies.
thats it.
gonna turn in earli.
dunno if i am able to slp.
sigh
posted by: Jasmine @ 10:13 PM
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rot at home all day.
went to smoke w wen just now.
weikang was there too.
just to find someone to pour my heart out.
really feeling v painful and tired.
as he who can't understand.
i had to tell somebody else.
as he couldn't care about me.
sigh.
i don't wanna be alone at home.
the feeling is just not right.
i am going out later to meet my long time no see primary sch mates.
i felt so sorry that i have been neglecting them since i had bf.
sorry guys.
you all are like my bros n sis.
will nv forget u guys!
eileen! cheer me up please.
i am dying i think. =(
posted by: Jasmine @ 7:38 PM
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歌曲：不在乎他
歌手：张惠妹
亲爱的他
早就不愿困在这个地方
逃避负担吧
谁也不愿作回答
我不得不想
他的身影不停回答
告诉自己过去已成回忆
作梦吧
才会有那么多想像
突然发现
不懂爱的人多么让人欣赏
不在乎他
过去我的心分不清真假
眼睛蒙上了一层纱
以为爱情是最美的花
不在乎他
只是他的吻依稀在面颊
今晚又想得太多
思念悄悄随着泪轻洒
亲爱的他
让我看见爱情的模样
站在人群中
孤单变得不可怕
爱能长久吗
我也经过许多挣扎
偶尔看不清
身在什么地方
醒来吧
听见了太多人说话
突然发现不懂爱的人多么让人欣赏
歌曲：留什么给你
那天离开你
留下几个字给你
心若像潮汐
梦如何决堤
爱就任它去
圆满的结局
终究可望不可及
感情要休息
流浪要勇气还想不想你
很久以来都不敢碰触的问题
每一次都出现在起风的夜里
让不很在乎寂寞的我
难过得想哭泣
爱都是开始得很美丽
结束得没道理
想想是很可惜
也许应该多陪陪你
应该体谅你彷徨的情绪
可是我不停泊的行李
不确定的轨迹
明天会在哪里
而我还有什么能够留给你
posted by: Jasmine @ 5:40 PM
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didn't went to sch today.
overslept!
i just woke up not long ago luh.
msg-ed jie & she told me she cut short hair!
concave bob!
i so wanna see it! =p
so bored now at hm.who wanna bring me out!i am rotting! >.<home sick!i miss MUMMY!hope she's enjoying her trip at korea.provided her leg has recovered. =)have not seen baby for days.he nv mention that he miss meeven if quarrel,he will only tell me he go and rest.and we end the conversation.thats him nowadays.like a stranger to me.i am losing faith.and tired.
posted by: Jasmine @ 3:59 PM
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see bi.
so cute luh!!!
omg!!
change my jeans to army print skirt.
sakae!
sit big big table.
1st time!
like jap restaurant.
hee.
after sch met up w my bitch for lunch at longjohnsilver's.
guess what?
i saw my "long-time-no-see" cousin, yvonne kan kar wai.
we are not close anymore, and look like strangers luh.
she keep looking at me though, its not friendly uh.
WHATEVER?
went home to get changed out of the jeans bef meeting jie!
went over to yishun to meet jie.
went to have sakae for dinner w jie, dennis, herman & jie's bf.
jie & bf so sweeet can? HEEE.
ate a little only. quite sick of sushi(s) =.=''
walked to khatib from north point.
quite far okay!
went to get icecream and went to jie's pa hse!
see bi, the time i rch there is like 10 plus?
so that explains why i reach home around 12am. (:
dennis share cab w me, bcos he going back to bukit batok.
he's like my elder brother can?
and herman is my little bro.
hahahah!
i like to go out w them because i feel like family outing!
i was like being taken care of. (:
am sleepy now but hafta finish this.
tmr mayb will b absent from sch.
really having not enough rest.
and eye bags is obviously darkened! =/
baby's sick.
well hope u recover.
i've nth much to say anymore.
u know it.
posted by: Jasmine @ 12:40 AM
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its vintage!
posted by: Jasmine @ 4:02 PM
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see see my new bag? heee.
love it.
vintage!
am in class now waiting for the faci to step in.
so sleepy luh.
cant stand it!
baby's still aslp.
miss him badly. =(
posted by: Jasmine @ 2:17 PM
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taken last fri using webcam! too bored! lalala~
宝贝！我很想你！我去睡了！晚安！
posted by: Jasmine @ 12:19 AM
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